Expectations.....

This post is meant to be insightful, not offensive.....

Expectations are a funny thing....just about as funny as people's perspectives.

Each and every morning minus the weekends I get up and get ready for work. Everyone still asleep when I leave. I make the 30 drive to work, put in an 8 hour day and then a 30 minute drive back home. In my life, 30 minutes is a lot of precious time. I usually get home from work around 5:30. Then a whole new marathon begins. I juggle homework, making Noah's food, feeding both kids and getting them bathed and in bed in 2 and a half hours by myself because Lane works evenings. Then back to homework again. In the midst of all of this I make Noah's appointments, deal with all of the SMA stuff and be his advocate, which is a full time job in itself.

Now I'm not complaining, simply giving insight to a day from my perspective.

This is where it all becomes funny. I have had multiple people say why don't you take a break, or why don't you ever have any time? Seriously?? When, How?  A breakdown of my day is never a good enough explanation which astounds me. I am one person....with a lot of daily tasks to complete. I know I am not perfect, I forget things and people A LOT! It is not intentional but my focus is the boys and school at the moment. It will be a miracle when I finish. At some point in my free time, Lane and I are going to put together a video of 24 hours of our life. Should be interesting.

So back to expectations, for some I am expected to do things on a dime. So for anyone who wonders why I haven't called, text or whatever it's not because I have forgotten about you or anything of that nature. It is simply that whenever I do get a free minute, I take a few breaths and get back to it. I love all of you that think and pray for us, we appreciate it very much. I am much better at receiving calls than making them. Hint, hint ;)   I am tired, stretched thin, overwhelmed and my emotions are a roller coaster. Thanks for your understanding. Please know I am trying........



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